Diana Gabaldon · @Writer_DG
23rd Jul 2015 from TwitLonger
In Honor of National Hot Dog Day--
#DailyLines #MOBY #ALetterFromFRANK
Dearest Deadeye,
You've just left me, after our wonderful afternoon among the clay pigeons. My ears are still ringing. Whenever we shoot, I'm torn between immense pride in your ability, envy of it--and fear that you may someday need it.
What a queer feeling it is, writing this. I know that you'll eventually learn who--and perhaps, what--you are. But I have no idea how you'll come to that knowledge. Am I about to reveal you to yourself, or will this be old news when you find it? If we’re both lucky, I may be able to tell you in person, when you’re a little older. And if we’re very lucky, it will come to nothing. But I daren’t risk your life in that hope, and you’re not yet old enough that I could tell you.
I'm sorry, sweetheart, that's terribly melodramatic. And the last thing I want to do is alarm you. I have all the confidence in the world in you. But I am your father, and thus prey to the fears that afflict all parents--that something dreadful and unpreventable will happen to your child, and you powerless to protect her.
“What the hell, Daddy?” She rubbed hard at the back of her neck to ease the prickling there.
Men who’ve lived through war usually don’t talk about it, save to other soldiers. Men from my part of the Service don’t talk to anyone, and not only because of the Official Secrets Act. But silence eats at the soul. I had to talk to someone, and my old friend Reggie Wakefield became my confessor.
(That’s the Reverend Reginald Wakefield, a Church of Scotland minister who lives in Inverness. If you’re reading this letter, I’ll very likely be dead. If Reggie is still alive and you are of age, go to see him; he has my permission to tell you anything he knows at that point.)
“Of age?” Hastily, she tried to calculate when this had been written. Clay pigeons. Sherman’s—the shooting range where he’d taught her to use a shotgun. The shotgun had been a present for her fifteenth birthday. And her father had died just before she turned eighteen.
The Service has nothing directly to do with this; don’t go looking in that direction for information. I mention it only because that’s where I learned what a conspiracy looks like. I also met a great many people in the War, many of them in high places, and many of them strange; the two overlap more often than one might wish.
Why is this so hard to say? If I’m dead, your mother may have told you already the story of your birth. She promised me that she would never speak of it, so long as I lived, and I’m sure she hasn’t. If I’m dead, though, she might—
Forgive me, darling. It’s hard to say, because I love your mother and I love you. And you are my daughter forever, but you were sired by another man.
All right, that’s out. Seeing it in black and white, my impulse is to rip this paper to bits and burn them, but I won’t. No, I won’t. You have to know.
Shortly after the War ended, your mother and I came to Scotland. Something of a second honeymoon. She went out one afternoon to pick flowers—and never came back. I searched—everyone searched—for months, but there was no sign, and eventually the police stopped—well, in fact they didn’t stop suspecting me of murdering her, damn them, but they grew tired of harassing me. I had begun to put my life back together, made up my mind to move on, perhaps leave Britain—and then Claire came back. Three years after her disappearance, she showed up in the Highlands, filthy, starved, battered—and pregnant.
Pregnant, she said, by a Jacobite Highlander from 1743 named James Fraser. I won’t go into all that was said between us; it was a long time ago and it doesn’t matter—save for the fact that IF your mother was telling the truth, and did indeed travel back in time, then you may have the ability to do it, too. I hope you don’t. But if you should—Lord, I can’t believe I’m writing this in all seriousness. But I look at you, darling, with the sun on your ruddy hair, and I see him. I can’t deny that.
Well. It took a long time. A very long time. But your mother never changed her story, and while we didn’t speak about it after awhile, it became obvious that she wasn’t mentally deranged (which I had rather naturally assumed to be the case, initially). And I began…to look for him.
Now I must digress for a moment; forgive me. I think you won’t have heard of the Brahan Seer. Colorful as he was—if, in fact, he existed—he’s not really known much beyond those circles with a taste for the more outlandish aspects of Scottish history. Reggie, though, is a man of immense curiosity, as well as immense learning, and was fascinated by the Seer—one Kenneth MacKenzie, who lived in the 17th century (maybe), and who made a great number of prophecies about this and that, sometimes at the behest of the Earl of Seaforth.
Naturally, the only prophecies mentioned in connection with this man are the ones that appeared to come true: He predicted, for instance, that when there were five bridges over the River Ness that the world would fall into chaos. In August 1939 the fifth bridge over the Ness was opened, and in September, Hitler invaded Poland. Quite enough chaos for anyone.
The Seer came to a sticky end, as prophets often do (do please remember that, darling, will you?), burnt to death in a spiked barrel of tar at the instigation of Lady Seaforth—to whom he had unwisely prophesied that her husband was having affairs with various ladies while away in Paris. (That one was likely true, in my opinion.)
Amongst his lesser-known prophecies, though, was one called The Fraser Prophecy. There isn’t a great deal known about this, and what there is, is rambling and vague, as prophecies usually are, the Old Testament notwithstanding. The only relevant bit, I think, is this: “The last of Lovat’s line will rule Scotland.”
Pause if you will, now, dear, and look at the paper I am enclosing with this letter.
Fumbling and clumsy with shock, she dropped the sheets altogether and had to retrieve them from the floor. It was easy to tell which paper he meant; the paper was flimsier, a photocopy of a hand-written chart—some sort of family tree-- the writing not her father’s.
Yes. Well. Thist bit of disturbing information came into my hands from Reggie, who’d had it from the wife of a fellow named Stuart Lachlan. Lachlan had died suddenly, and as his widow was clearing out his desk, she found this and decided to pass it on to Reggie, knowing that he and Lachlan had shared an interest in history and in the Lovat family, they being local to Inverness; the clan seat is in Beauly. Reggie, of course, recognized the names.
You likely know nothing about the Scottish aristocracy, but I knew Simon Lovat, Lord Lovat that is, in the war—he was Commandos, then Special Forces. We weren’t close friends, but knew each other casually; in the way of business, you might say.
“Whose business?” she said aloud, suspicious. “His, or yours?” She could just see her father’s face, with the hidden smile in the corner of his mouth, keeping something back, but letting you know it was there.
The Frasers of Lovat have a fairly straightforward line of descent, until we come to Old Simon—well, they’re all called Simon—the one they call the Old Fox, who was executed for treason after the Jacobite Rebellion—the ’45, they call it. (There’s quite a bit about him in my book on the Jacobites; don’t know if you’ll ever read that, but it’s there, should you feel curious.)
“Should I feel curious,” she muttered. “Ha.” Brianna sensed a definite, if muted, note of accusation there, and pressed her lips together, as annoyed at herself for not having read her father’s books yet, as at him for mentioning it.
Simon was one of the more colorful Frasers, in assorted ways. He had three wives, but was not famous for fidelity. He did have a few legitimate children, and God knows how many illegitimate ones (though two illegitimate sons were acknowledged)—but his only heir was Young Simon, known as the Young Fox. Young Simon survived the Rising, though attainted and stripped of his property. He eventually got most of it back through the courts, but the struggle took him most of a long life, and while he married, he did so at a very advanced age, and had no children.
So Young Simon was the “last of Lovat’s line”—there’s a direct line of descent between him and the Fraser of Lovat who would have been concurrent with the Brahan Seer—but clearly he wasn’t the Scottish ruler foreseen.
You see the chart, though. Whoever made it has listed the two illegitimate sons, as well as Young Simon. Alexander and Brian, born to different mothers. Alexander entered the priesthood, and became the abbot of a monastery in France. No known children. But Brian—
She tasted bile and thought she might throw up. But Brian-- She closed her eyes in reflex, but it didn’t matter. The chart was burned on the inside of her eyelids.
[chart]
Simon Lovat (Old Fox)
:
Alexander (bastard) Brian (bastard) – Ellen MacKenzie (date)
(dates?) (b. 1692, d. 1741) (b.1695, d. 1733)
Simon Lovat (Young Fox) – (whoever it was) :
:
James Alexander (b. 1721, d. ?) – Claire Beauchamp Randall (b. 1918?) - F.Randall
:
Brianna Ellen Randall (Fraser) (b. 1948)
:
She stood up, pushing back the chair with a screek and lurched out into the hallway, heart thundering in her ears. Swallowing repeatedly, she went to the lobby and got the shotgun from its place behind the coat-rack. She felt a little better with it in hand.
“It isn’t right.” She hadn’t realized that she’d spoken aloud; her own voice startled her. “It’s not right,” she repeated, in a low, fierce voice. “They left people out. What about Aunt Jenny? She had six kids! What about them?”
She was stomping down the hallway, gun in hand, swinging the barrel from side to side as though she expected Rob Cameron—or somebody, and the thought made her shudder—to jump out of the parlor or the kitchen or come sliding down the banister. That thought made her look up the stairs—she’d left all the lights on when she came down from tucking in the kids-- but the landing was empty and no noise came from above.
A little calmer, she searched the ground floor carefully, testing every door and window. And the priest-hole, whose empty blackness gaped mockingly up at her.
Jem and Mandy were all right. She knew they were. But she still went upstairs, soft-footed, and stood by their beds for a long time, watching the soft yellow glow of the Care-Bears night-light on their faces.
The longcase clock in the hall below struck the hour, and then a single bong! She drew a deep breath and went down to finish reading her father’s letter.
[end section]
The current line of Fraser of Lovat is descended from a collateral branch; presumably the Fraser Prophecy isn’t referring to one of them—though there are plenty of heirs in that line.
I don’t know who drew this chart, but I do intend to find out. This letter is in case I don’t. In case of a number of things.
One of those things being the possibility that your mother’s story is true—I still have difficulty believing it, when I wake in the morning beside her and everything is so normal. But late at night, when I’m alone with the documents…those mute but eloquent witnesses… Well, why not admit it? I found the record of their marriage. James Alexander Malcolm MacKenzie Fraser, and Claire Ellen Beauchamp. I’m not sure whether to be grateful or outraged that she didn’t marry him under my name.
Forgive me, I’m rambling. It’s hard to keep emotion out of it, but I’ll try. The essence of what I’m saying is this: If you can indeed go back in time (and possibly return), you are a person of very great interest to a number of people, for assorted reasons. Should anyone in the more shadowed realm of government be convinced that you are what you may be, they would take you into custody, immediately. You might be freed, eventually, if you could convince them that you have no such ability—but if there was the slightest evidence to the contrary, but you would always be watched. And if you can indeed do it, your only escape might well be into the past.
There are private parties who would also have a deep interest in you for this reason—and evidently, there is someone who has spotted you, and is watching. The chart showing your line of descent, with dates, indicates that much. It also suggests that this person or persons’ interest may be a concern with the Fraser Prophecy. What could be more intriguing to that sort of person, than the prospect of a person who is “the last of Lovat’s line” and is also a time-traveler? These sorts of people—I know them well—invariably believe in mystic powers of all sorts—nothing would draw them more powerfully than the conviction that you hold such power.
If I find whoever drew this chart, I will do my best to neutralize any possible threat to you. But as I say—I know the look of a conspiracy. Nutters of this sort thrive in company. I might miss one.
“Neutralize them,” she murmured, the chill in her hands spreading through her arms and chest, crystallizing around her heart. She had no doubt at all what he’d meant by that, the bland matter-of-factness of the term notwithstanding. And had he found him—them?
Don’t—I repeat, don’t—go anywhere near the Service or anyone connected with it. If you are indeed what you may be, the last people who should ever know it are the government.
And if worse should come to worst—and you can do it—then the past may be your best avenue of escape. I hope I may have given you a few tools to help, if that should be necessary.
And…there’s him. Your mother said that he sent her back to me, knowing that I would protect her—and you. She thought that he died, immediately afterward. He did not. I looked for him, and I found him. And like him, perhaps I send you back, knowing of him—as he knew it of me—that he will protect you with his life.
For both us know whose child you truly are.
With all my love,
Dad