I won't post videos on Har N again... but I will never forget this journey.

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On the day that I post this, I have reached 8,000 subscribers on my YouTube channel. I have somehow gained hundreds of subscribers even after I have stopped posting videos, but with a great community, I am not surprised.

A few months ago, I posted my goodbye video, and I received many amazing comments. Thank you for what you have all said; I really appreciate it. I know that many of you have asked to continue posting videos on Har N some way or another, but unfortunately, this is something that I am unable to enjoy, and I don't want that to affect the quality of my content. Yes, I completely understand that I have fans out there who love my videos, but I don't want to be giving them bad videos. There are a lot of other YouTubers out there who I'm sure that they will enjoy; I'm not the only one. :)

Ever since I have stopped posting videos, I have noticed major positive changes in my life. I'm happier, I feel less controlled by my viewers and the games that I play, I go out a lot more, and really, I feel great. Although I may have worded my feelings incorrectly in the video, this wasn't a rage quit, but more of me moving on with my life. I will never put this completely behind, as shown by me returning every once in a while to reply to comments such as yours.

But overall, I have made a 100% decision to never post videos on this channel again and I will stand by my choice. There are so many fans that loved (and still love) my videos, and I truly appreciate each and every one of them. But, on the other hand, there are many people on this channel that are so negative towards each other. I've seen many channels on YouTube where the community was absolutely amazing, probably even more amazing than my own. I realize now that I built my channel incorrectly. I posted the wrong types of videos, and I appealed to the wrong audience. I am proud of what I have done, but these videos don't truly show who I am. I'm not sure if I can stress this enough, but what I have said and done online unfortunately does not truly represent who I am.

Think of this channel as my test run. I might be back to YouTube soon, but not on this channel. I've learned from my mistakes, and if I ever come back to this whole YouTube business, I want a fresh start. YouTube is an amazing place for that; people start their lives over all the time. Instead of returning to this decently big, yet unstable, channel, I want to start over. Maybe I will play games again, or maybe I'll go somewhere completely different. I don't know, but this channel and community will never leave me. Good times and bad, I have learned so much throughout this journey.

If you have made it this far, I thank you for reading this entire message. I know that only some of you will have managed to find this post, so thank you if you have read all the way up to here. You guys won't ever leave me, and I will use everything that I have learned from my two years here throughout my life. I have no idea how much it will help me since I have a long road ahead, but I will remember this forever. Again, I definitely won't be posting videos on Har N anymore, but I may or may not be back to YouTube soon, using what I have learned to my advantage. I might love it there, and I might even grow to be extremely successful. Who knows? Only time will tell.

-Har N

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