Giga | COMMISSIONS OPEN (0/4) · @Gigantis2k
27th Apr 2022 from TwitLonger
Farewell to this account. Activity is being moved to the art account (in bio).
Hello, Giga here, or whatever name you may know me as. To make this quick but simple as the character limit on the main site itself is so so so, for the sake of redundancy, limiting, wanted to explain my little “retirement” post if you will. Retirement? Nah, not fully. You know, I’m not gonna ham it up and say “oh I'm misunderstood'' and shit, cos that’s only rarely the case, may have been in the beginning, but certainly not in the present time. Truth is, I’m an asshole, I’m a scumbag, I’ve grown my popularity, personality and public image since 2017 off of being an angry grouch who likes to troll people I have petty hatred of (although in some cases, it’s a bit more than that, but shhhhh we’re not gonna talk about that here), and I never really acted as if I had a moral high ground either when doing this, it was mostly some scum on scum action of one asshole insulting/trolling another. And I’m honestly tired of it. It’s time to grow up, y’know? I had a bit of a rude awakening about a week ago, on friday. Although the context was a friend literally telling me something else about my advances as an artist (a different story that I sorta explained in another post), it did get me thinking about the context put instead upon my life as a whole. Do I really want to do the same song and dance number over and over again? Do I really wanna spend the rest of my 20s gaining fame and notoriety over dunking on some internet randos? Do I really just wanna sulk my early adulthood in pure negativity as I already did during most of my youth? Live in literal mediocrity as a mood? Hell nah, I literally have no reason to be a petty angry grouch anymore lmao. I have finally more confidence in my own art, I can finally develop more of my personal projects with my new laptop, I can stream, record, play higher quality games, I can finally do all the shit I missed out on during my teenage years. Sure, I may still have lots of self hatred but oh well, we’ll figure that one out soon right? Point is. I’m done, I may still shitpost or say stupid shit every once in a while, but I’m done. I rather keep to myself and just focus on my artwork, commissions and such. My mother always said, like any other mother would say I guess, “if you’re not gonna say something nice, then don’t say it.” And it’s true. The older I’ve gotten the more and more sour I’ve looked into my past as an edgy teen saying stupid shit online, it ain’t good, either for my own image (public or self awareness) and I basically think it’s time to give it a stop, or else I’ll end up poisoning my mental health over meaningless shit, and continue to lose contact with friends who mean a lot to me (2020-early 2021 was rough on this regard, my actions had consequences, and they still do). Nothing lasts forever, and in this case, it’s my negativity revolving literally anything. Another quote that comes to mind is “Maybe making people happy feels better than being hated by them”. And this one lived rent free for a long while in my head, didn’t think of it much at first, because I’m objectively hated by many people (for good reason lol), but in the past few years, doing free doodles for my friends and mutuals, taking a moment to do something for someone else, help them, gift them something, and getting a smile out of that (either of my own or theirs), just really felt right. In my actual job, during the day, I sometimes mention it, but I’m an essential worker, and doing this kind of work for the past 2 years already really struck me with a revelation of this sorts too, there’s too much to actually worry about in our world other than just me being petty online, and once again, to be able to help in a way brought me happiness more than any dumb online shenanigans would. Of course there’s a TLDR version of this on the main post, but what am I getting at? I’m retiring this page’s constant activity for real now. Might even delete it, idk tbh. I want to focus on my art and other hobbies, to which you can find me more actively (but even then only if something worth while posting comes up to mind) on my Art Page (well now main page), @KuWota2k, where you’ll see toys, games, doodles, artwork, etc. of my different interests. Just gonna learn more and more to not give a damn about shit that angers me and instead just focus on what makes me happy, and to share that with others to have some actual fun from now on. I’ve been blessed to have a job that grants me enough time to develop myself as a professional in that field but also enough time to enjoy more of life and my hobbies with tons of spare time. I gained the confidence to do commissions too to put my artistic skills to the test as well. Life’s good and yet here I am constantly complicating it with silly and stupid things to bring in more negativity instead of just swimming in the positive things. So that’s pretty much it. See you rarely. I’m probably gonna follow back/or just follow most of my mutuals from the old account onto the new page so that way we don’t lose touch. I really appreciate all of the new friends I’ve made in the past year because it only further mainly realized what needed to change, what stays and what leaves in terms of myself.
“Farewell”, but not fully. Love you and cheers.