I really can't seem to pull myself out of this slump.
It's like, since I came home from Seoul, I felt down. I usually feel this after watching a SuShow, but it's already over a week later and I still haven't pulled myself out of it. It's like all the other sad things that I put aside hitched a ride with my post-SS6 depression and all of them rolled into one long, sad, messy week. I feel like I'm a mess. Like I'm rushing everyday to just put patches on a boat with holes and making it just enough so that it doesn't sink. I've been doing all my "emergency happy solutions" tricks and all it did for me was... well, add one more layer of fat on my already sickeningly fat body.
And today, out of all days, I was looking forward to something I've waited for for around 2yrs. But then the bitch of a weather decided to wreak havoc in the late afternoon, which, typically, turned Metro Manila into a lake w/in minutes, resulting in another road-parking-lots kind of night.
To cut the story short, we didn't make it to the show. And even though my tickets came with what's supposed to be insurance that'll protect us from unforseen events, apparently our reason isn't good enough to warrant a refund. Well, this isn't for sure yet. I still have to call the company tomorrow. I just hope they have kind and understanding hearts.
Sigh. I just... I really wish I manage to turn my mood around by next week. I know there are phases in a year when you're really happy, and one where you're being emo. But ugh. I don't like feeling like the sun is refusing to shine on my world. I'm not a teenager anymore. I have no use for being angsty. I need my positivity to get my work done and get ahead on things so I can rest a bit.
I feel so tired.
Please... I wanna turn this frown upside down. :(